We are getting ready to go to Grand Junction, Colorado to see my grandparents. I didn't think I was going to be able to go, but I am going and I am happy.
David spent the week in hockey camp. He loves hockey so much. This year was his first year of all day camp, and they were on the ice for like 3 hours so by today he was dead tired. I didn't stay at the rink all day everyday like I normally do, it was just to long and the other 2 got bored after an hour, so today we watched them all day. They did some skills assements today and then they played a game, which was the highlight of Davids week, and then they watched themselves on video and he got to bring his video home with him. He is ready to start the season next year and we still have 2 months before it starts. The mites have a travel team and he wants to try out for it, but I think 7 is a little to young to be that competitive, not to mention the fact that all I hear from Steve is how expensive it is. I think next year will be better for the travel team, he will be a better skater and it the other 2 will be a little bigger and easier to travel with.
Friday, July 29, 2005
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Jenn's very own quiz
The Relationship quiz
1. I am going to go see my grandparents, who live 6 hours away. You...?
A. Tell me to have a good time and you will see me when I get home.
B. Pout and throw a fit.
C. Make any excuse you can find to keep me from going ie. We canÂ’t afford it, the car might break down ect.
2. You drink...
A. To get drunk and you do it often.
B. When your having a good time and never so much that you can't stand up.
C. Once in awhile, but only if your not driving
3. You want a little sex, and I am tired. You...
A. Turn over and pout all night.
B. Storm out of bed and go through all my files on the computer, because I must have a boyfriend.
C. Understand and hope for the best tomorrow morning.
4. Tomorrow morning rolls around you...
A. Sweetly wake me up doing all those things you know are going to turn me on.
B. Nudge me and say "you wanna fool around?"
C. Take advantage of the fact that I am still mostly asleep and just go for it.
5. You sister and I have had a falling out. You...
A. Tell me I am childish because I don't want to spend time with someone who says I am a bitch and a bad mother.
B. Stay neutral it's not your battle.
C. Get sad because I "hate" your whole family.
6. I am chatting online with one of my girlfriends. You...
A. Do your own thing until I am done.
B. Keep asking me who I am talking to and keep walking over to look over my shoulder to see what we are saying.
C. Get mad and drink more beer.
7. We are sitting watching a movie I want to see, but your not really that interested in. You...
A. Sit quietly and watch with me, it might surprise you and be good.
B. Talk excessively through the entire movie.
C. Get on the phone and have a 2 hour long distance conversation 2 feet from me so I can't hear the movie.
8. It's a quiet night at home and you are watching TV. I am sitting at the computer writing. You are...
A. Glad I have something I enjoy doing.
B. Annoyed at the fact that I am not paying attention to you.
C. Thinking of the best way to get me into bed.
9. I need half an hour of quiet alone time. You are...
A. All for giving me some space.
B. Angry that I don't want to spend every free second with you.
C. Take the opportunityy to do something you enjoy.
10. Sex is
A. Always the same.
B. Fun and spontaneouss.
C. A little on the freaky deakey side.
Just some of the questions I should have asked before I made a commitmentt.
Sandman where are you?
Sleep is my elusive mistress, she stands there teasing me and taunting me like a wanton whore, but never getting close enough for me to touch. Just when I think I have seduced her into my bed she jumps up and runs from me so I have to chase her. I stumble around blinded from her beauty, but never knowing the sweet taste of her lips.
1. I am going to go see my grandparents, who live 6 hours away. You...?
A. Tell me to have a good time and you will see me when I get home.
B. Pout and throw a fit.
C. Make any excuse you can find to keep me from going ie. We canÂ’t afford it, the car might break down ect.
2. You drink...
A. To get drunk and you do it often.
B. When your having a good time and never so much that you can't stand up.
C. Once in awhile, but only if your not driving
3. You want a little sex, and I am tired. You...
A. Turn over and pout all night.
B. Storm out of bed and go through all my files on the computer, because I must have a boyfriend.
C. Understand and hope for the best tomorrow morning.
4. Tomorrow morning rolls around you...
A. Sweetly wake me up doing all those things you know are going to turn me on.
B. Nudge me and say "you wanna fool around?"
C. Take advantage of the fact that I am still mostly asleep and just go for it.
5. You sister and I have had a falling out. You...
A. Tell me I am childish because I don't want to spend time with someone who says I am a bitch and a bad mother.
B. Stay neutral it's not your battle.
C. Get sad because I "hate" your whole family.
6. I am chatting online with one of my girlfriends. You...
A. Do your own thing until I am done.
B. Keep asking me who I am talking to and keep walking over to look over my shoulder to see what we are saying.
C. Get mad and drink more beer.
7. We are sitting watching a movie I want to see, but your not really that interested in. You...
A. Sit quietly and watch with me, it might surprise you and be good.
B. Talk excessively through the entire movie.
C. Get on the phone and have a 2 hour long distance conversation 2 feet from me so I can't hear the movie.
8. It's a quiet night at home and you are watching TV. I am sitting at the computer writing. You are...
A. Glad I have something I enjoy doing.
B. Annoyed at the fact that I am not paying attention to you.
C. Thinking of the best way to get me into bed.
9. I need half an hour of quiet alone time. You are...
A. All for giving me some space.
B. Angry that I don't want to spend every free second with you.
C. Take the opportunityy to do something you enjoy.
10. Sex is
A. Always the same.
B. Fun and spontaneouss.
C. A little on the freaky deakey side.
Just some of the questions I should have asked before I made a commitmentt.
Sandman where are you?
Sleep is my elusive mistress, she stands there teasing me and taunting me like a wanton whore, but never getting close enough for me to touch. Just when I think I have seduced her into my bed she jumps up and runs from me so I have to chase her. I stumble around blinded from her beauty, but never knowing the sweet taste of her lips.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Sleep deprived and feeling Randy
I crept off to bed about 1ish in the am, and because I have not gotten my own bedroom as I have asked for many time, I have to slip into bed as quiet as I possible can. I start to get in and Steve is taking up the whole damn bed, and I don't need a whole lot of room a quarter of the bed works for me, but I don't even find an eighth. I wiggle in trying not to touch him just mentally willing him to move over, no luck he threw his leg on top on me and proceeded to snore in my ear for the next hour. I know what makes women go insane and kill their husbands and it has nothing to do with PMS! I lay there wishing he would stop snoring, because I was tired and we had to get up early. The next hour was spent praying for death his or mine I didn't care just so long as the snoring in my ear stopped. Then thank God his alarm went off, oh good he is going to get up and I can finally sleep and have some peace, oh no he hits the snooze, and whoever invented the snooze button needs to be kicking in the nuts, not once but twice he does this, and not even scooting over to do it.
So now it's almost 2:45 and he is finally getting out of bed. I stretch out and get all comfy and stuff, and fell asleep... for a whole 3 hours then I hear "mama" in a soft whisper then it gets a little louder "MAMA, mama, mom, mother, mom, mama until finally Jennifer this is your kid and I need you to get up now I have hockey camp!" I pry my eyelids apart look at him thinking there is no way I gave birth to this creature, glance toward the clock and see I have another hour and 15 minutes of sleep coming to me. I tell D that it isn't time yet and I think I said something like "go away or I will beat you." He did because he is a wise child, he gets that from me! So I lay there for about 15 minutes and think well I might as well get up. So I get out of bed and we get all ready for camp today. He had a great time, but got a little bored at times he said. They have video/lecture time and no 7 year old wants to sit that long!
So tonight I got the kids all snuggled into their beds and I cranked up the tunes, and I am attempting to blog on little sleep. I get the bed all to myself tonight WOOOHOOO sleep sweet sleep! I will probably crawl into bed and lay there wide awake!
So now it's almost 2:45 and he is finally getting out of bed. I stretch out and get all comfy and stuff, and fell asleep... for a whole 3 hours then I hear "mama" in a soft whisper then it gets a little louder "MAMA, mama, mom, mother, mom, mama until finally Jennifer this is your kid and I need you to get up now I have hockey camp!" I pry my eyelids apart look at him thinking there is no way I gave birth to this creature, glance toward the clock and see I have another hour and 15 minutes of sleep coming to me. I tell D that it isn't time yet and I think I said something like "go away or I will beat you." He did because he is a wise child, he gets that from me! So I lay there for about 15 minutes and think well I might as well get up. So I get out of bed and we get all ready for camp today. He had a great time, but got a little bored at times he said. They have video/lecture time and no 7 year old wants to sit that long!
So tonight I got the kids all snuggled into their beds and I cranked up the tunes, and I am attempting to blog on little sleep. I get the bed all to myself tonight WOOOHOOO sleep sweet sleep! I will probably crawl into bed and lay there wide awake!
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Cleaning up a bit
I was going through all the stuff I have in drafts that I have never finished, but meant to get to soon. I have had a lot going on around here. I will share a few of the story, but I have no hope of ever finishing them so I will just share the best parts.
Granny panics.
Mom and dad where have been here working on the house with us, and they have to stay in a motel while they are here, because our house is to freaking small, but that is another story, for another time. Anyway mom and I decide call it a night and take the boys swimming at the motel pool. We get there and I am finishing a cigarette, funny thing about smoking they say the second hand smoke is what will kill your children. "They" would be so wrong in their thinking. I am standing at the gate and I look at mom, she is wide eye and saying something I can't make out, but I think she is talking to the boys. I look in the direction she is looking and I see Cam go under, surface, and go under again. OH SHIT I think. I drop my cigarette, kicked off my shoes, threw my purse, and in I went after him clothes and all. My mom works at a rec center, and is certified to save lives, but apparently they never tested her in a real situtation, because she fails miserablely at life saving skills! I grabbed Cam, and he was fine. He just didn't know it dropped off that quickly. He knows how to hold his breath, so I wasn't to worried.
Nice ride dude.
My neighbors got a new old car, and Colton walks past them the other day and says "Nice Ride Dude." He's four where the hell does he come up with this stuff?
Aluminim house.
You know those people who think that if they were tinfoil hats the aliens won't be able to read their thoughts, or something like that. Well I would bet that every UFO within 3000 miles has had thier radar thrown off by our house. It is a lovely shiny foil, and there is no hope of it ever getting siding on. This whole 19 days is going to be a big freaking waste of energy, but I am safe for any alien invasion so that does make me feel better.
There were more drafts, but I am tired and David has to be to hockey camp at an ungodly hour so I won't be posting those. I am off to bed, so we can get up at the butt crack of dawn, thank god I will have one child that is wore out at the end of the day. Maybe I will run the other 2 in front of the car on the way home so we can all get to bed earily. OH and no the siding is not up we still have a shiney house and I don't give a shit it isn't my house and I won't be here long enough to die here that is for sure!
Granny panics.
Mom and dad where have been here working on the house with us, and they have to stay in a motel while they are here, because our house is to freaking small, but that is another story, for another time. Anyway mom and I decide call it a night and take the boys swimming at the motel pool. We get there and I am finishing a cigarette, funny thing about smoking they say the second hand smoke is what will kill your children. "They" would be so wrong in their thinking. I am standing at the gate and I look at mom, she is wide eye and saying something I can't make out, but I think she is talking to the boys. I look in the direction she is looking and I see Cam go under, surface, and go under again. OH SHIT I think. I drop my cigarette, kicked off my shoes, threw my purse, and in I went after him clothes and all. My mom works at a rec center, and is certified to save lives, but apparently they never tested her in a real situtation, because she fails miserablely at life saving skills! I grabbed Cam, and he was fine. He just didn't know it dropped off that quickly. He knows how to hold his breath, so I wasn't to worried.
Nice ride dude.
My neighbors got a new old car, and Colton walks past them the other day and says "Nice Ride Dude." He's four where the hell does he come up with this stuff?
Aluminim house.
You know those people who think that if they were tinfoil hats the aliens won't be able to read their thoughts, or something like that. Well I would bet that every UFO within 3000 miles has had thier radar thrown off by our house. It is a lovely shiny foil, and there is no hope of it ever getting siding on. This whole 19 days is going to be a big freaking waste of energy, but I am safe for any alien invasion so that does make me feel better.
There were more drafts, but I am tired and David has to be to hockey camp at an ungodly hour so I won't be posting those. I am off to bed, so we can get up at the butt crack of dawn, thank god I will have one child that is wore out at the end of the day. Maybe I will run the other 2 in front of the car on the way home so we can all get to bed earily. OH and no the siding is not up we still have a shiney house and I don't give a shit it isn't my house and I won't be here long enough to die here that is for sure!
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Happy Birthday
I am sitting here sadly writing this post. My oldest baby turns 7 today. To him that means he is having a birthday and getting presents and having cake and all the fun stuff that goes with being a child and having a birthday. To me it means he is one step closer to leaving me, and there is nothing I can do to stop the fact that my kids will out grow me. They already need me less and less the older they get, but one day they will only call on me when they need something. They won't want to hang out and play with me, and they won't want to snuggle up on the couch and watch movies with me, and they won't want to go places with me, and, and, and... and then one day they will spread their wings and fly out in this world by themselves, leaving me behind with only memories of the times they were little and mom was their best friend.
I often wonder what I will do then without my children. What did I do before I had kids? All I can remember is them being in my life they are my soul purpose for living. I adjust around their needs, and nothing about me is important, there is no point where they stop and I begin. I will learn to let them go, because that is what a good parent does, they let them go so they can make their way in the world, and with any luck find love, happiness, achieve all their hearts desires. I am just at the starting point of letting go. I still have many skinned knees to kiss and hurt feeling to mend, but everyday they pull harder and harder at those strings just waiting for their chance to break free.
Happy birthday little man I love you so much.
I often wonder what I will do then without my children. What did I do before I had kids? All I can remember is them being in my life they are my soul purpose for living. I adjust around their needs, and nothing about me is important, there is no point where they stop and I begin. I will learn to let them go, because that is what a good parent does, they let them go so they can make their way in the world, and with any luck find love, happiness, achieve all their hearts desires. I am just at the starting point of letting go. I still have many skinned knees to kiss and hurt feeling to mend, but everyday they pull harder and harder at those strings just waiting for their chance to break free.
Happy birthday little man I love you so much.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
I wanna talk about me
The sweetness that is Jack requested this, and how can I refuse him anything? Well I can't, and that is apparent because I am doing it, and it was harder than it looks!
Turn-offs:
1. Hatefullness
2. indecisiveness
3. piss poor attitudes
4. moodiness
5. stupidity (so agree on that!)
6. lack of humor
7. lack of trust
8. lies
9. people who talk to much
10. uncleanlyness
Turn-ons:
1. Honesty
2. foreplay
3. humor
4. smiles
5. trust
6. freedom
7. love
8. good sportsmanship
9. kisses on the back of my neck
10. self confidence (even though I lack that)
Turn-offs:
1. Hatefullness
2. indecisiveness
3. piss poor attitudes
4. moodiness
5. stupidity (so agree on that!)
6. lack of humor
7. lack of trust
8. lies
9. people who talk to much
10. uncleanlyness
Turn-ons:
1. Honesty
2. foreplay
3. humor
4. smiles
5. trust
6. freedom
7. love
8. good sportsmanship
9. kisses on the back of my neck
10. self confidence (even though I lack that)
UPDATES
Just talked to Tricia girl. She said they are doing good so far! They got Zach all hooked up to the stuff he is suppose to be hooked up to and they are now proceeding to get his heart into the irregular rhythm so they can zap him with the laser!
Wow what a relief! Tricia called and said that Zach is heading to recoverary, and they will be heading home this evening! Everything went much smoother than it did last year.
Wow what a relief! Tricia called and said that Zach is heading to recoverary, and they will be heading home this evening! Everything went much smoother than it did last year.
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Mending broken hearts
I know this post was suppose to be about rodoe's and cowboys and all that, but something much more important came up.
Most of you know my very good friend http://Tricia girl. If you have been reading awhile then you know that her baby boy Zack had to have surgery on his heart last year and it didn't work because his heart was to little. Well the 20th of this month they are going to try it all again. When you read Tricia's page she sounds like a rock, because that is what mom's do they are strong and supportive on the outside, but on the inside she is a wreak, and I wish I could be there for her. I know everything is going to work this time, and Zach won't ever have to do this again! I am asking all of you to keep Zach and his family in your thoughts and prayers this Wednesday
Tricia girl I am so sorry I have been so hard to get ahold of this past week when you have needed me, but know that I love you very much and am thinking of you. I wish that I could hop on a plane to be there with you. I know there isn't really anything I could do, but worry with you and I will be doing that from here.
Most of you know my very good friend http://Tricia girl. If you have been reading awhile then you know that her baby boy Zack had to have surgery on his heart last year and it didn't work because his heart was to little. Well the 20th of this month they are going to try it all again. When you read Tricia's page she sounds like a rock, because that is what mom's do they are strong and supportive on the outside, but on the inside she is a wreak, and I wish I could be there for her. I know everything is going to work this time, and Zach won't ever have to do this again! I am asking all of you to keep Zach and his family in your thoughts and prayers this Wednesday
Tricia girl I am so sorry I have been so hard to get ahold of this past week when you have needed me, but know that I love you very much and am thinking of you. I wish that I could hop on a plane to be there with you. I know there isn't really anything I could do, but worry with you and I will be doing that from here.
Friday, July 15, 2005
8 seconds
It is fair and rodeo week, and with all the work going on around our house I didn't think we would get a chance to go this year. The boys were really disappointed when I told them we probably wouldn't make it this year, especially David, but he didn't whine or pout he cowboyed up and accepted the fact that he wouldn't get to ride that mechanical bull like he has talked about since last year. Last night I got them all showered and dressed and David put his boots on his little feet and it was off to the rodeo.
We arrived early so that we could touch every animal within a 20 mile radius, because the fair just isn't the fair unless my eyes swell darn near shut from algeries. Our first stop was the petting farm. They had goats, llamas, chickens, ducks, sheep, cows, pigs, but my very favorite was a little brauma bull. I say little cause it wasn't very old, but it was still huge compared to every other animal in there. He was so cute though. He followed me around licking me with his giraffe like tongue my arm was slobbered up from the elbow to the tips of my fingers and then he would rub his head against my leg, and ram into me if I tried to pet anyone else. I really wanted to bring him home with me, but I don't think I could pass him off as a large dog and city laws don't allow keeping a bull in your yard! The boys touched everything and Colton got to kiss a few goats and a couple of calves the calves kissed him right back. Cows are very licky animals, but they drool like mad.
Next we were off to the mechanical bull. I gave David his 5 bucks, signed the release, and off he went with the biggest smile I have even seen. He got on slipped his hand under the rope and held that little arm up in the air ready to ride. He rode for about a minute and then the guy increased the speed and he stayed with it for about 5 seconds before he got bucked off. He was still grinning from ear to ear when he jumped up, and on the way out he gave the guy a high five and told him "that was awesome dude!" the guy got a big kick out of him. David is now sure he is a real cowboy, and I wish I had the money for him to be, but horses cost to much to feed and board, and my god they are just so much work.
More rodeo adventures tomorrow. I have to go work now this stupid house sucks!
We arrived early so that we could touch every animal within a 20 mile radius, because the fair just isn't the fair unless my eyes swell darn near shut from algeries. Our first stop was the petting farm. They had goats, llamas, chickens, ducks, sheep, cows, pigs, but my very favorite was a little brauma bull. I say little cause it wasn't very old, but it was still huge compared to every other animal in there. He was so cute though. He followed me around licking me with his giraffe like tongue my arm was slobbered up from the elbow to the tips of my fingers and then he would rub his head against my leg, and ram into me if I tried to pet anyone else. I really wanted to bring him home with me, but I don't think I could pass him off as a large dog and city laws don't allow keeping a bull in your yard! The boys touched everything and Colton got to kiss a few goats and a couple of calves the calves kissed him right back. Cows are very licky animals, but they drool like mad.
Next we were off to the mechanical bull. I gave David his 5 bucks, signed the release, and off he went with the biggest smile I have even seen. He got on slipped his hand under the rope and held that little arm up in the air ready to ride. He rode for about a minute and then the guy increased the speed and he stayed with it for about 5 seconds before he got bucked off. He was still grinning from ear to ear when he jumped up, and on the way out he gave the guy a high five and told him "that was awesome dude!" the guy got a big kick out of him. David is now sure he is a real cowboy, and I wish I had the money for him to be, but horses cost to much to feed and board, and my god they are just so much work.
More rodeo adventures tomorrow. I have to go work now this stupid house sucks!
Monday, July 11, 2005
Windows, siding, and doors oh my!
I have brand spanking new windows and 2 new doors, and one whole strip of new siding! I am just so happy we are not going to have that ugly yellow house anymore! There will still be a lot of painting to do when all the siding is finished, and the windows will need stained on the inside, but that isn't a big deal I can do that without Steve. We are going to have to get busy really fast now cause there are only 8 more days of Steves vacation, and there is still a lot of work to do.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Sorry it took so long!
Ashley's questions
1. Is there some place that you want to travel to that you have not been yet?
2. After college are you planning on staying in your hometown to work or moving somewhere else?
3. What is one great thing you want to accomplish in your life time?
4. Would you rather have fame and fortune or love and happiness?
5. and David wants to know if you have any good hockey camps this summer? and he wants me to tell you he is going to hockey camp at the end of the month and he will be 7 then... he has a lot he wants to tell you.
Miss Vicki
1. How was the baseball game yesterday?
2. Why don't you have some 25 year old love slave? You are young, beautiful, and single you should!
3. What is the most embarassing moment so far in your life?
4. Do you ever wish you had kids?
5. How did you wind up in Oregan?
1. Is there some place that you want to travel to that you have not been yet?
2. After college are you planning on staying in your hometown to work or moving somewhere else?
3. What is one great thing you want to accomplish in your life time?
4. Would you rather have fame and fortune or love and happiness?
5. and David wants to know if you have any good hockey camps this summer? and he wants me to tell you he is going to hockey camp at the end of the month and he will be 7 then... he has a lot he wants to tell you.
Miss Vicki
1. How was the baseball game yesterday?
2. Why don't you have some 25 year old love slave? You are young, beautiful, and single you should!
3. What is the most embarassing moment so far in your life?
4. Do you ever wish you had kids?
5. How did you wind up in Oregan?
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Man you guys are quick
Shara's Questions
1. Are you feeling like your normal self yet?
2. Where do you see yourself in 10 years.
3. Have you got all the glass cleaned up or are you still finding it in odd places?
4. How do you make web design look so easy? Everytime I go to your page or Dawn's you have added something else that is awesome cool.
5. What is your favorite place to eat out?
Jamie's Questions
1. Have you been sleeping much lately with a new baby in the house.
2. Do you workout to keep those great legs or are you one of those lucky people who are just naturally blessed with them?
3. Do you still ride motorcycles after your near death experience with them?
4. How did you and Mel meet and was it love at first sight?
5. Boxers or Briefs?
and on to our furture president.
1. When your elected president will you be letting the vice president make most of the major decisions like how things are in this adminastration? I don't know if I can handle all that pressure so I need to know now so I can prepare.
2. How did you sucker Jen into staying around all these years?
3. How is your mom doing?
4. In light of all your health issues have you been trying to take better care of yourself?
5. If you could change one thing that has happened in your past what would it be?
Steve needs me on the ladder now, so I will get back at this in a little while!
1. Are you feeling like your normal self yet?
2. Where do you see yourself in 10 years.
3. Have you got all the glass cleaned up or are you still finding it in odd places?
4. How do you make web design look so easy? Everytime I go to your page or Dawn's you have added something else that is awesome cool.
5. What is your favorite place to eat out?
Jamie's Questions
1. Have you been sleeping much lately with a new baby in the house.
2. Do you workout to keep those great legs or are you one of those lucky people who are just naturally blessed with them?
3. Do you still ride motorcycles after your near death experience with them?
4. How did you and Mel meet and was it love at first sight?
5. Boxers or Briefs?
and on to our furture president.
1. When your elected president will you be letting the vice president make most of the major decisions like how things are in this adminastration? I don't know if I can handle all that pressure so I need to know now so I can prepare.
2. How did you sucker Jen into staying around all these years?
3. How is your mom doing?
4. In light of all your health issues have you been trying to take better care of yourself?
5. If you could change one thing that has happened in your past what would it be?
Steve needs me on the ladder now, so I will get back at this in a little while!
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Jack has a lot of questions!
Wanna play a game? Volunteer have me ask you five questions. But you HAVE to answer them, blog them and make yourself available to ask five questions of other volunteers. And then they'll tell two friends, and they'll tell two friends, and they'll tell two friends...
1. If you could build your life from scratch, where would you be now?
If I knew then what I know now... I would have finished college and gotten a real job. This is a hard question, because everything I would change involves doing something that results in me not having the boys. If I would have stayed in Denver and finished college I wouldn't have met Steve, and I wouldn't have the boys, and the thought of not having them in my life is horrifying. If I didn't know now what I didn't know then... I would probably be right where I am now, because I wouldn't have the knowledge about the mistakes I have made, so I would more than likely make them again. Tough question Jack and one I often think about myself. I am not sure I am willing to change everything and not have my kids.
2. Is evil something one is, or something one does?
Oh boy there is no black and white answer to this question. I think it depends on what your idea of evil is. I think there are people who do evil things and have no remorse for their actions and that makes them just as evil as their actions. Then there are people who do evil things and suffer for the rest of their lifes with regrets over those actions so there act was evil, but they are not evil themselves.
3. Who's your favorite Bond?
Sean Connery is Bond. You mean there were others? I can watch Roger Moore, but even he doesn't compare to Sir Sean Connery. He was hot then and he is hotter now.
4. When are women going to unite and take over??
Women already rule it is our plan to make men think they are safe and secure, but every night while you men are sleeping we plant subconscious ideas in your heads, that's the reason we always get our way.
5. How do you read so incredibly fast? Have you always?
I had a lot of trouble learning to read when I was little, then when I finally got it there was no stopping me. I went from little kids books to grown up books almost over night. I guess I just wanted to hurry and get through one book so I could get to the next. I was reading my mom's romance novels by 4th grade, and by sixth grade I was reading Shakespeare, which probably isn't that big of a deal for someone who didn't struggle with reading, but to me it was. I am not sure that romance novels are the best material for a 10 year old, but I couldn't get enough, and books geared to my age level didn't hold my interest. If something is boring it takes me a long time to read it, but if it a good piece of work, like your book, I hate to walk away from it until I am finished with it.
1. If you could build your life from scratch, where would you be now?
If I knew then what I know now... I would have finished college and gotten a real job. This is a hard question, because everything I would change involves doing something that results in me not having the boys. If I would have stayed in Denver and finished college I wouldn't have met Steve, and I wouldn't have the boys, and the thought of not having them in my life is horrifying. If I didn't know now what I didn't know then... I would probably be right where I am now, because I wouldn't have the knowledge about the mistakes I have made, so I would more than likely make them again. Tough question Jack and one I often think about myself. I am not sure I am willing to change everything and not have my kids.
2. Is evil something one is, or something one does?
Oh boy there is no black and white answer to this question. I think it depends on what your idea of evil is. I think there are people who do evil things and have no remorse for their actions and that makes them just as evil as their actions. Then there are people who do evil things and suffer for the rest of their lifes with regrets over those actions so there act was evil, but they are not evil themselves.
3. Who's your favorite Bond?
Sean Connery is Bond. You mean there were others? I can watch Roger Moore, but even he doesn't compare to Sir Sean Connery. He was hot then and he is hotter now.
4. When are women going to unite and take over??
Women already rule it is our plan to make men think they are safe and secure, but every night while you men are sleeping we plant subconscious ideas in your heads, that's the reason we always get our way.
5. How do you read so incredibly fast? Have you always?
I had a lot of trouble learning to read when I was little, then when I finally got it there was no stopping me. I went from little kids books to grown up books almost over night. I guess I just wanted to hurry and get through one book so I could get to the next. I was reading my mom's romance novels by 4th grade, and by sixth grade I was reading Shakespeare, which probably isn't that big of a deal for someone who didn't struggle with reading, but to me it was. I am not sure that romance novels are the best material for a 10 year old, but I couldn't get enough, and books geared to my age level didn't hold my interest. If something is boring it takes me a long time to read it, but if it a good piece of work, like your book, I hate to walk away from it until I am finished with it.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Is it hot in here or is it just me?
Steve finally starts his vacation tomorrow, and the siding is going up and the windows are going to be installed. Hopefully anyway, there may be a killing before it's all done. I am not looking forward to this project. It will be hot out! When I get hot I get hateful.
More people should read Jamie's blog. He is funny, and has really nice legs! Go dig through his archives and find the pictures. He is a new daddy too.
Me and the boys rode our bikes to the park last night, and ran into our pre school teacher, and her family. She had David for kindergarten, and Cam for 2 years of preschool, and next year she will have Colton. Then her youngest son is in hockey with David. I am so lucky to have her, because she made the transition into school life so much easier. I know that she loves my kids, and they are in good motherly hands when they are in her class. She has 5 kids of her own and then fosters other kids a lot.
I actaully broke down and got a cell phone or as Colton calls it "technology". "Is that your technology mom?" he asks me. Lets just hope I don't become one of those women that anger me, you know the ones that drive around talking on the phone causing car accidents.
More people should read Jamie's blog. He is funny, and has really nice legs! Go dig through his archives and find the pictures. He is a new daddy too.
Me and the boys rode our bikes to the park last night, and ran into our pre school teacher, and her family. She had David for kindergarten, and Cam for 2 years of preschool, and next year she will have Colton. Then her youngest son is in hockey with David. I am so lucky to have her, because she made the transition into school life so much easier. I know that she loves my kids, and they are in good motherly hands when they are in her class. She has 5 kids of her own and then fosters other kids a lot.
I actaully broke down and got a cell phone or as Colton calls it "technology". "Is that your technology mom?" he asks me. Lets just hope I don't become one of those women that anger me, you know the ones that drive around talking on the phone causing car accidents.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Baddest Boots
Toby Keith
Baddest Boots
I got the baddest boots on the boulevard
Yeah the baddest boots on the boulevard
They make a man proud walking through a crowd
Whoa nothin' else can stand beside em
When I pull em on I start singin' a song
Make me wanna tuck my britches' legs inside em
D man talked grandpa into getting these! He won't take them off his feet.
I had a quiet week without the boys around. Steve ended up going to Utah, came home at 2am friday, tore the sliding glass door out Sat, put plastic up so he could put the new door in today, and ended up having to go back to Utah this morning until wednesday. My horoscope said I would be more in tune with nature, but I didn't think they meant this freaking close.
Baddest Boots
I got the baddest boots on the boulevard
Yeah the baddest boots on the boulevard
They make a man proud walking through a crowd
Whoa nothin' else can stand beside em
When I pull em on I start singin' a song
Make me wanna tuck my britches' legs inside em
D man talked grandpa into getting these! He won't take them off his feet.
I had a quiet week without the boys around. Steve ended up going to Utah, came home at 2am friday, tore the sliding glass door out Sat, put plastic up so he could put the new door in today, and ended up having to go back to Utah this morning until wednesday. My horoscope said I would be more in tune with nature, but I didn't think they meant this freaking close.
Monday, June 20, 2005
Sunday, June 19, 2005
googlie goo
I stole this from Wendy girl. It is amazing all the things you can borrow from other people when you are are just not posting orginal stuff! Thanks Wendy girl!
Googlism's for Jenn.
jenn is an atheist- yes I am kinda sorta I guess.
jenn is awesome dot com- who didn't know that one.
jenn is not here yet- but with any luck she will show up soon!
jenn is cooler- but cooler than what?
jenn is my ex- yeah get over it already I have.
jenn is a person who loves jesus deeply ? it's very apparent-- yeah real apparent especially since I just said I was an atheist.
jenn is singing-usually
jenn is listening- So you better watch out I am just like that Santa Clause guy or the federal government whichever.
jenn is not a doctor or nurse- and I don't play one on TV.
jenn is unashamedly flirting with bill- sadly I don't know Bill, but I am always game for flirting so give me a shout Bill!
jenn is the founder of auroramud- What the hell is auroramud?
jenn is older then glen they apparently didn't have colour photography at that point- I deny ever posing with glen in those pictures, you can't prove nothing!
jenn is the best thing
jenn is responsible for the project finances-well yes and no, I am an unvested signer on the loan, which means that is Steve dies they hold me responsible for paying it off, but if he divorces me it all on him!
jenn is a wonderful person
jenn is doing all of the hard work- well that is just a given.
jenn is waiting for a response-you people alway keep me waiting!
jenn is no help-stop making me wait for a response and I might be more helpful
jenn is going to put the hurt to them-I might
jenn is soft-yeah and fleshy and squishy
jenn is concerned that jack is slipping away from her- Sadly he is I find him lurking about every now and then, but he seldoms states his love for me anymore! I think he is cheating on me.
jenn is a reject 59- 59 what bottles of beer on the wall?
jenn is one of the few females on the boards that i like-Thanks I like you too!
jenn is up on the bridge- and if Jack slips away I may jump.
jenn is the glue of the operation-Well someone has to hold it all together
jenn is shy and contemplative-sometimes
jenn is a lifeguard and swim instructor-I did once have my lifeguard certificate, but I was never a lifeguard or swim instructor.
jenn is not responsible for any injury- this is ture it isn't my fault and I don't have enough for you to actually sue me so go hassle someone else.
jenn is a woman named rosario-No really I am Jenn, I don't even know anyone named Rosario
Googlism's for Jenn.
jenn is an atheist- yes I am kinda sorta I guess.
jenn is awesome dot com- who didn't know that one.
jenn is not here yet- but with any luck she will show up soon!
jenn is cooler- but cooler than what?
jenn is my ex- yeah get over it already I have.
jenn is a person who loves jesus deeply ? it's very apparent-- yeah real apparent especially since I just said I was an atheist.
jenn is singing-usually
jenn is listening- So you better watch out I am just like that Santa Clause guy or the federal government whichever.
jenn is not a doctor or nurse- and I don't play one on TV.
jenn is unashamedly flirting with bill- sadly I don't know Bill, but I am always game for flirting so give me a shout Bill!
jenn is the founder of auroramud- What the hell is auroramud?
jenn is older then glen they apparently didn't have colour photography at that point- I deny ever posing with glen in those pictures, you can't prove nothing!
jenn is the best thing
jenn is responsible for the project finances-well yes and no, I am an unvested signer on the loan, which means that is Steve dies they hold me responsible for paying it off, but if he divorces me it all on him!
jenn is a wonderful person
jenn is doing all of the hard work- well that is just a given.
jenn is waiting for a response-you people alway keep me waiting!
jenn is no help-stop making me wait for a response and I might be more helpful
jenn is going to put the hurt to them-I might
jenn is soft-yeah and fleshy and squishy
jenn is concerned that jack is slipping away from her- Sadly he is I find him lurking about every now and then, but he seldoms states his love for me anymore! I think he is cheating on me.
jenn is a reject 59- 59 what bottles of beer on the wall?
jenn is one of the few females on the boards that i like-Thanks I like you too!
jenn is up on the bridge- and if Jack slips away I may jump.
jenn is the glue of the operation-Well someone has to hold it all together
jenn is shy and contemplative-sometimes
jenn is a lifeguard and swim instructor-I did once have my lifeguard certificate, but I was never a lifeguard or swim instructor.
jenn is not responsible for any injury- this is ture it isn't my fault and I don't have enough for you to actually sue me so go hassle someone else.
jenn is a woman named rosario-No really I am Jenn, I don't even know anyone named Rosario
Friday, June 17, 2005
one of those days
Today I woke up and didn't have any coffee, I was out. I thought there was another canister on top of the cabinet, but it was empty! I have a caffine withdrawl headache something awful. Then my computer crashed, I really need to learn to say out of the registery files, but no I have to go and delete them making it impossible for my XP to run properly. The boys made a mud hole in the back yard and covered themselves in mud, and despite all of that I am in a relatively happy mood. I think I am learning how to hold the little things close to my heart and be happy with that, after all the little things are special. Little things like a hug from the boys, a phone call from someone I love, a few quiet moments in my day, time to myself at night to read a book or blog, the little things are what get me through. There are lots of little things that I treasure. Even with being in said really good mood I desperately want to rewind my day and relive about 15 minutes of it. There were so many things I should have said and didn't, and I am a dork! So now I am thinking what a total idiot I am. Can I get those few minutes back please, I am begging here! I want a redo damn it!! The momorns have been patroling the neighborhood today they are crazy people. I politly told them I was not interested, why do I feel the need to be so freaking nice to them? This is the second time this week! If I would have only told them off maybe they wouldn't come back! Something I am working on, maybe one day I will finish it.
Can you?
Can you touch my soul,
Make me believe in fairy tales with happy ending?
Can you show me who I am again?
And understand that’s just me?
Can you make it real,
Instead of just a fantasy?
Can you be everything to me,
Without taking away who you need to be?
Can you hold me
And let me fly?
Can you sit with me quietly
and know everything is ok?
Can you be my strength
when I am weak?
Can you believe in my
when I don't believe in myself?
Can you touch my soul
and love me?
Can you?
Can you touch my soul,
Make me believe in fairy tales with happy ending?
Can you show me who I am again?
And understand that’s just me?
Can you make it real,
Instead of just a fantasy?
Can you be everything to me,
Without taking away who you need to be?
Can you hold me
And let me fly?
Can you sit with me quietly
and know everything is ok?
Can you be my strength
when I am weak?
Can you believe in my
when I don't believe in myself?
Can you touch my soul
and love me?
Alone Again
I lay awake staring at the blackness surrounding me, the ceiling fan softly swirling round and round above me, and I know I will not sleep tonight. Like so many nights I lay here and wonder if you really love me or if it is just something you say to appease me. I want to be able to see it in your eyes when you say those words and know that you mean them. I desperately want to feel it when you touch me, and hear it in your voice when you say you love me. I yearn to be the first thought you have each morning, and the last thought you have each night before you drift off to peaceful slumber. I long to be your everything, your rain, your shine, the snow storm that keeps you inside, your days, your nights. I need to be wrapped up in your arms and feel safe from the world knowing you would protect me from myself. There are fleeting moments when I think maybe it is true, just maybe you really do love me, but in a blaze there gone, and I am left feeling alone again.
Thursday, June 16, 2005
History
My mom got a copy of a letter written by my granddaddy's grandmother, Annie Devriee, after she got married she became Annie Olree, making her something like my great great grandmother. Granny Annie, that's just fun to say, has been dead for a long time now, and the letter was written in Oct. of 1907, almost 98 years ago. She was writing to one of her son's, she had 7 son's and one daughter. She wanted to get together at Christmas with all her kids. They hadn't sold the cotton yet so there wouldn't be any money for presents, but they sold the scrip so there should be enough for a nice dinner with everyone. Wow talk about poor, but I guess most people back then were poor, it was a different world, and money wasn't what make it go round.
Anyway the letter talked about how Granny Annie was worried about his soul and wanted to be sure he was following God's will. Her husband, my great great grandfather, was a preacher and they ended up in Texas. She also mentioned selling some books, which we don't know if she wrote books or was selling them for other people, but when her kids were small she would make them put on passion plays so we think she may have written books as well, probably religious books.
After her husband died at the rip old age of 45, Granny Annie moved all her kids back to Missouri, and that is where they all stayed except my great grandaddy who made his way back to Texas.
It's funny how one letter can bring on so many question. Like where are these books she was selling, what were they, how come great grandaddy went back to Texas, apparently he hoboed his way back there. What I am really wondering is how many shirt tail relations do I have out there wondering the same things!
Mom has a picture of them that I will post one of these days.
Anyway the letter talked about how Granny Annie was worried about his soul and wanted to be sure he was following God's will. Her husband, my great great grandfather, was a preacher and they ended up in Texas. She also mentioned selling some books, which we don't know if she wrote books or was selling them for other people, but when her kids were small she would make them put on passion plays so we think she may have written books as well, probably religious books.
After her husband died at the rip old age of 45, Granny Annie moved all her kids back to Missouri, and that is where they all stayed except my great grandaddy who made his way back to Texas.
It's funny how one letter can bring on so many question. Like where are these books she was selling, what were they, how come great grandaddy went back to Texas, apparently he hoboed his way back there. What I am really wondering is how many shirt tail relations do I have out there wondering the same things!
Mom has a picture of them that I will post one of these days.
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